OOC: Hey are you at the camp right now? Or did you just stop at some random place?

I grabbed a pen and some paper I found at the mansion and started to write.

'Dear friends.."

I choked, I couldn't write more, my hands were shaking too bad and I couldn't think straight.

"Anna, I don't want to do this anymore, I'm done with all this running, and fighting, It's not what i want Anna, I want to live peacefully, not in a hell like this.."

I couldn't sleep. The days events kept running through my head... He wouldn't try to do it again- would he?? I just had to try and distract myself and sleep. Okay, this couldn't be so hard. I've slept through worse nights than this.. I wanted to just fall asleep..

"She was already asleep I guess. Ah well, might as well go to sleep myself, might feel better tomorrow." I whispered to myself.

OOC: geez

*after everyone that was gonna go to sleep was asleep i started walking around camp*
I cant sleep ...Great my sleep apnea is coming back .... the doc said it was only suposed to hapen when i was nervous or scared ...
No ... no .... im comfortable here.
*wanders around the camps boarders making sure theres no holes*
*walks over to the broken down trees*
*takes out knife*
*starts to make a boat out of the old tree*
*in mind*
This is something i can do when everyone is fighting .... when i just wanna explode ... this reminds me of my parents
*continues working*

I go inside the bus, and lay down on the seat I used to stay on, and cover myself with the blanket. Everyone was inside. I opened the roof's holes (those two things in the bus that open so that air comes in) with the remote and looked at the sky. "How're you holding up, Katy? Hanna said you could drive a plane if it was the case..could you? We may soon set our destination to an airport if everyone agrees" I whisper to Katy so I don't wake anyone up.

OOC: We're all at the camp, Everett. And Hanna, you are making a boat from a tree with a knife. Seems legit

*after working for about an hour i get somewhat tired*
*i walk back to the bus*
*walk on and sit inside by alex an katy*
Hey alex how are ya?

"I'm fine, thanks" I say, while still looking out at the stars. It's wonderful how, in the middle of the nature, you can't even count the stars; but in the middle of a city, you can't even see any stars at all.

*puts a pillow behind head and starts to relax*
Ahh i love this view.
So whats next captain?
*giggles*

*pulls out a tattered photo and stares longingly at it, resting head on hand*

OOC: Doing some catching up.

After witnessing Julien's suicide attempt I was beginning to have negative thoughts of my existence. I Couldn't sleep so I decided to take a walk by the beach. The moon's reflection on the calm ocean was beautiful. I eventually stop when I found a rock to sit down on and ponder. "What's the point in living in fear, what's the point of living confined, what's the point in staying alive." I ask myself, but I had no answers.

*I shoot the last of my ammunition to kill off remaining zombies* "hello is anyone still alive in there?" *I think to myself,I am so screwed!*

* I appear behind Creeping shadow (idk ur role-play name)* can't sleep,huh?

OOC: Shall we skip the night?

Ooc: fineeeee.

IC: I couldn't sleep. I was thinking the whole night, the bad feelings weren't over, they only became stronger, I can't do it if everyOne's watching, maybe I should sneak out if nobody's paying attention. I should leave a note aswell, although I'm pretty sure they can guess what I'm doIng.. Ah well, I'll just wait for the right moment.

I take a pen and paper I foUnd in the mansion and started to write..

I was surprised that I managed to scrape together 2 hours of sleep. I still felt terrible- but not physically- only mentally. I needed to go for a walk. Dang it. Alex had taken my magnum, oh well, at least I still had my Deagle. I checked the clip. I should be fine for ammo in case I met any walkers. Its shocked me really- you know, about how natrual this is for us now. Nothing surprises us..

I went to the sea, within sight of the camp so Alex couldn't blow his top at me for wandering off. I walked into to the water untill I was about waist deep. I felt the water fill up my boots and surround my toes and it sort of relaxed me.. I held my breath as I sat down under water, clinging to the ground so I didn't float upwards. The top of my head was still visible above the water. I came up a few times for air, then got up and walked along the shore-line, still in sight of camp. It was freezing- so cold that it actually stung my skin- but physical pain barely phased me these days... I'd already taken as much pain as my body could possibly handle..

After about 45 minutes I walked back to camp and sat on my drenched sleeping bag, soaked from last nights rain.

(ive been away for about an hour) *jogs along the beach and stops at camp, resting hands on knees panting* "phew" *stretches out and begins a workout using body weight and some heavy rocks*