Sorry, I need a place to vent. So brace yourselves for a depressing topic x.x. So, I recently got dumped by the first real girlfriend I've ever had, who... was one of my best and only friends for most of my life. I'm very introverted like that. But since she dumped me she doesn't even want to be friends. I could understand not dating anymore, even though we'd dated for over a year, but losing my best friend like that, and my only friend, was literally like cutting out a part of myself. The person who kept me sane when noone else would, the person who kept me company, the person who helped me through what I thought would be the hardest times of my life. We had everything in common and now I've lost her.. I would have done anything for her, I still would, but all I can do is let go. Everyone tells me to move on, to forget about it. But I feel empty. Everything I ever enjoyed, she helped me enjoy them. We lived for eachother, we played games together, we talked constantly. I just can't find joy in life, because even gaming reminds me of her now. I'm completely alone, and moving on isn't an option. I'm too antisocial to go out and meet new people, and when I DO meet someone I just... don't click with them. Like, at all. Even trying to talk to her now, she gets mad at me and tells me we can't be friends anymore, yells at me...
On top of this, I don't really consider myself attractive, even if I were outgoing. I've had two girlfriends in life, but only this one was serious. I have faded acne scarring on my face and major scars on my body from a skin condition I used to suffer from. Even if I were able to find people to talk to, I don't believe I'll ever be able to find someone else to love. I know people go their whole lives without finding someone to love, and I'm so worried about ending up like that because I'm already so alone as is. I just need people to talk to... other opinions, people who might have advice..
On top of this, I don't really consider myself attractive, even if I were outgoing. I've had two girlfriends in life, but only this one was serious. I have faded acne scarring on my face and major scars on my body from a skin condition I used to suffer from. Even if I were able to find people to talk to, I don't believe I'll ever be able to find someone else to love. I know people go their whole lives without finding someone to love, and I'm so worried about ending up like that because I'm already so alone as is. I just need people to talk to... other opinions, people who might have advice..
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