Hiya all of you fellow bros!
I am a pretty cheerful person who would do anything and everything for every person I meet if they needed help. I love people and I am there for those who need someone. People I meet describe me as "innocent," "naive," "optimistic," and the sort because I am pretty ditzy, I guess.
However, I have been battling depression for years now and I started cutting last October or so. I have relapsed a few times and I find myself growing super sad and crying at night when I am about to go to sleep. My friends and mom found out about my cutting when I first started and freaked out to the point where I was treated like a five year old where I wasn't allowed to do anything without supervision. After a few months with me not cutting or voicing my sad thoughts to others, they calmed down and then allowed me to do things like before.
However, since then, I have been super sad some of the times, but I don't want anyone to worry about me so I shut myself in my own thoughts and just cry when I am alone. I don't want anyone to feel worried or sad for me and I don't want to be a further burden. I feel like since I am the "happy, sweet girl" that everyone assumes is always okay, that I shouldn't ask for people to help me. I want to tell my best friend so bad that I just want a hug but I just go through night after night without saying anything and acting okay in the morning, greeting everyone with a big smile but with tired, sad eyes.
I don't really know what I am asking, but I just wanted to talk. I feel kind of alone, like I am not able to talk to anyone in my real life because I am selfish and attention seeking.
I hope you all don't think I am an awful person, but I just wanted to talk.
I hope on the happy side that all is well. If you ever need anyone to talk to, feel free to chat if you have any problems. I know what it is like to need someone there but you are too scared to ask for help haha.
I love you all!
*brofist*
I am a pretty cheerful person who would do anything and everything for every person I meet if they needed help. I love people and I am there for those who need someone. People I meet describe me as "innocent," "naive," "optimistic," and the sort because I am pretty ditzy, I guess.
However, I have been battling depression for years now and I started cutting last October or so. I have relapsed a few times and I find myself growing super sad and crying at night when I am about to go to sleep. My friends and mom found out about my cutting when I first started and freaked out to the point where I was treated like a five year old where I wasn't allowed to do anything without supervision. After a few months with me not cutting or voicing my sad thoughts to others, they calmed down and then allowed me to do things like before.
However, since then, I have been super sad some of the times, but I don't want anyone to worry about me so I shut myself in my own thoughts and just cry when I am alone. I don't want anyone to feel worried or sad for me and I don't want to be a further burden. I feel like since I am the "happy, sweet girl" that everyone assumes is always okay, that I shouldn't ask for people to help me. I want to tell my best friend so bad that I just want a hug but I just go through night after night without saying anything and acting okay in the morning, greeting everyone with a big smile but with tired, sad eyes.
I don't really know what I am asking, but I just wanted to talk. I feel kind of alone, like I am not able to talk to anyone in my real life because I am selfish and attention seeking.
I hope you all don't think I am an awful person, but I just wanted to talk.
I hope on the happy side that all is well. If you ever need anyone to talk to, feel free to chat if you have any problems. I know what it is like to need someone there but you are too scared to ask for help haha.
I love you all!
*brofist*
