hh hey uh sup? 
Mah name is Edina,weird,yeah I know but it's, uh lets call it more like ugh 'Balkan' name of sort ._.
anyway XD
I'm a new bro,I mean I'm a bro for more than a year, but new to the forum, I was too lazy to join before xD
So um yeah I just wanted to say HI to all, cause Pewds told me, ya know what I mean ;D aaand yeah some stuff I like?
I'm kinda too lazy to write it all cause there's like tons I like pretty much everything so yeah XD
Okay, I'll try to write at least some
So the first thing I like the most, that you(if anyone is ever going to read this XD) actually give a fuck about is of course our BRO Master, Pewds :love: I mean there's like tons of reasons, first of all he helped me get out of the HUGE depression I was in and I'm so thankful to him. I..I lost my best friend...and..uh well yeah it was a dog, but *sigh* now I started crying again, goddam! ;-; I actually don't have much friends, I used to live in a village where I had a lot of them and I rarely was home I was always out playing with them and stuff,and then some family shit happened and we had to move to the city which I didn't like even a little,first of all cause I was 'in love' with one of those friends and second I couldn't have my pets with me and I can't live without animals I just love them way too much,so I only could to take one pet with me and it was like the hardest thing ever in my life,even harder than picking a starter in Pokemon,so yeah I had 4 dogs,7 cats,4 bunnies and a hamster(which we took cause he's lil).So I picked this one dog which was the youngest,smallest and cutest. Her name was Flekica,witch is like Dotty or something in English cause she was light brown with little black spots/dots on her back,she was so sweet so I just thought I'll take her cause she was only 2 months old I could leave her there with my grandpa who already had too much stuff to care bout.So since my other 3 dogs were all older than 2 years I picked her.We moved to the new place I HATED IT. I was never out of my room, I just didn't like it, I rarely even talked to anyone, even thou my very close cousin lived right on the 2nd floor, but NOUH! XD After 5 months of being there Fleky,how I called her,got sick, all of sudden,I still don't know why,we were taking her to the vet all the time,she got all the stuff she needed from there,but then she just got sick,she didn't want to eat at all. And tomorrow when I woke up, late as always around 15h, she couldn't even move,she couldn't even look at me,she was like 'half dead',I just grabbed her and run to the vet who was very close to the place we were,which was the only thing I liked there, he gave her like 10 vaccines,but her body wouldn't let the medicine to actually stay in,it was just coming back from the spot the vet stinged her...I...just...He said she'll be fine,so I just took her back home. I live in a small country and our animal care sucks so it was around 1am, we were heading to bed and I saw blood.It was coming out of her nose.I got that mini heart attack when I saw it.I just started panicking I didn't know what to do.She couldn't even raise her head, she was just lying, couldn't move even a little.Mom and I took her to that vet but no one was there and since we didn't have a car,we had to sell it, we couldn't go to the Animal Center witch was on the other side of the city, and it also doesn't work all night, someone might come if you call them when you get there, but they just give you a stupid advice or something just to get you off their back, so mum called this vet that was really a pro, and he said he can't help if he doesn't know what's the illness she has, and of course that he's busy and he told us to bring her to him first thing in the morning. Mom just tried to calm me down a little bit, we headed back home, she said Fleky'll be fine, it's all gonna be good, like it always has to end well.I wanted to believe her.I did, a little.I really hoped it IS gonna all end great.I prayed like never just to keep her. I..;-; - And then around 6am I heard mom in my room, I woke up. And...she..she was there...on her blanket...I saw mom crying and I just....>.< I jumped of my bed and I saw here there...I-I couldn't breathe I just touched her, said her name and hoped like never she's gonna open her eyes and look at me, but ....no, she..she didn't....I couldn't even move, mom just hugged me and I was just like...I don't even know...Then dad came in and wanted to take her so he can bury her, and that's when mom asked Will I take one last photo? After she said that, that moment, I just...I don't remember I cried this bad even after my grandma died. Ever since that moment I rarely said a word to anyone. I was just like a statue, just the body, no words, no emotions, nothing. I lost the only friend I had left, you may think I'm an idiot, mourning over some stupid dog, but that dog was the only thing I had left, and when I lost her, I just felt like I lost everything, I forgot about my family, and those few friends I had left, I just continued playing games, hoping to think less about Fleky. And then 6 months after I lost her I found out about Pewds
I didn't even smile in those 6 months but just after few seconds of his video I started laughing, I just... I felt great, I watched his videos 2 days/nights straight I just loved him so bad and after a few weeks watching him I felt way better, I made some new awesome friends I stared going out a lil bit again, my grades are WAY better and now after a year of watching him I can't even say how great I feel, I still have those broken pieces but I keep it off my mind now, I also got a new dog, Jena, and two kitties, Buki and Ginger, moved to a way better place now, right next to my bff,Sheila, she also has some pets.We're just animal freaks, we can't live without them 
But yeah I'm still not 'used' to Jena, because I'm just afraid I'll get to close with her like I did with Fleky, and that I'll forget Flekica if I give my all heart to Jena now, so I..I kinda don't love her that much, I'm just scared she'll be too close and then just 'leave', like Fleky did....but I don't know...my pets are still my best friends I guess 'cause I spend all my time at home and rarely go out, only when Sheila 'attacks' me and pulls me out of my room XD But that's just what I do. Spend day playing games, spend night watching Pewds, Cry and Smosh. :3
Aaaaand that's a bit of my story 'How I met PewDiePie and why I love him so damn much' XD
The second reason I love him is because he's a great inspiration, I mean if you watch ALL of his videos (mainly the fridays with pdp) you'll just fall in love with his sense of humor and personality and everything. He always makes me laugh, and sometimes cry, of course, but yeah that's just him and my 'life with him' (sounded creepy, but yeah XD)
I also want to be like him, I mean to start the gaming channel on youtube but...I don't know I'm only 15, I'm a girl, so you know, issues and stuff, I'll probably get a lot of hate and that 'just another attention whore' stuff, and I use his accent and characters and everything A LOT and I also might be 'just another bad copy of Pewdie' but I wouldn't try to copy him.It's just who I am right now.He's a part of my heart, I love him and he's like an older brother, someone I look up to and of course I do stuff he does, so I kinda don't want to start the channel yet, even if it's like my 3 biggest wish XD I'm just so shy and insecure so maybe, MAYBE I do it when I'm a lil older or something, I don't know, we'll see c:
Wow o.o I wrote quite an essay there XD
We'll I should stop I guess I don't know I only told you like 3 things I like; Pewds, animals and games XD
Oh, yeah Smosh and Cry too
And when I think about it, there's actually way more stuff I DON'T like XD
Anything that's girly, like; jewelry, going out(not really girly but xd), dresses, tight clothes, shopping, gossips, make up UUGH that's fucking make up, I just hate it so much I really don't know why XD and yeah stuff like that, cause I'm really more into guy's stuff, like; football, games, super huge shirts, those nice shorts that don't fucking suck up to your butt to make you look fucking 'nice' like most girls think
and being alone, I just enjoy it a lot 
So yeah, that would be my little story. If anyone actually reads it I just wanna say thanks for taking your time, sorry if I made you cry,(probably didn't) but I cried badly while writing about my dog, I was writing for like 5 seconds and then crying for 5 minutes, and then again writing through tears ;-;
But, yeah I somehow made it.
Sorry if I misspelled something, I'm not very great with English, it's not my mother language, I learned it mostly playing games, just like everything else I'm good at, and so yeah, that would be it. Thanks again and Pewds if you ever read this I just wanna say thank you from the bottom of my heart for making my life better and actually for bringing it back, you're a huge inspiration and one day I hope I'll get to be like you. *brofist* <3
Before you leave This is Flekica 
after we moved in to the new place.
And then this is her a week before she passed away.
And now this is Jena, the new crazy pup I have.She's now almost 6 moths old but since I couldn't find any new photo of her here's her when I she was around 2-3 months old :love:
Mah name is Edina,weird,yeah I know but it's, uh lets call it more like ugh 'Balkan' name of sort ._.
anyway XD
I'm a new bro,I mean I'm a bro for more than a year, but new to the forum, I was too lazy to join before xD
So um yeah I just wanted to say HI to all, cause Pewds told me, ya know what I mean ;D aaand yeah some stuff I like?
I'm kinda too lazy to write it all cause there's like tons I like pretty much everything so yeah XD
Okay, I'll try to write at least some
So the first thing I like the most, that you(if anyone is ever going to read this XD) actually give a fuck about is of course our BRO Master, Pewds :love: I mean there's like tons of reasons, first of all he helped me get out of the HUGE depression I was in and I'm so thankful to him. I..I lost my best friend...and..uh well yeah it was a dog, but *sigh* now I started crying again, goddam! ;-; I actually don't have much friends, I used to live in a village where I had a lot of them and I rarely was home I was always out playing with them and stuff,and then some family shit happened and we had to move to the city which I didn't like even a little,first of all cause I was 'in love' with one of those friends and second I couldn't have my pets with me and I can't live without animals I just love them way too much,so I only could to take one pet with me and it was like the hardest thing ever in my life,even harder than picking a starter in Pokemon,so yeah I had 4 dogs,7 cats,4 bunnies and a hamster(which we took cause he's lil).So I picked this one dog which was the youngest,smallest and cutest. Her name was Flekica,witch is like Dotty or something in English cause she was light brown with little black spots/dots on her back,she was so sweet so I just thought I'll take her cause she was only 2 months old I could leave her there with my grandpa who already had too much stuff to care bout.So since my other 3 dogs were all older than 2 years I picked her.We moved to the new place I HATED IT. I was never out of my room, I just didn't like it, I rarely even talked to anyone, even thou my very close cousin lived right on the 2nd floor, but NOUH! XD After 5 months of being there Fleky,how I called her,got sick, all of sudden,I still don't know why,we were taking her to the vet all the time,she got all the stuff she needed from there,but then she just got sick,she didn't want to eat at all. And tomorrow when I woke up, late as always around 15h, she couldn't even move,she couldn't even look at me,she was like 'half dead',I just grabbed her and run to the vet who was very close to the place we were,which was the only thing I liked there, he gave her like 10 vaccines,but her body wouldn't let the medicine to actually stay in,it was just coming back from the spot the vet stinged her...I...just...He said she'll be fine,so I just took her back home. I live in a small country and our animal care sucks so it was around 1am, we were heading to bed and I saw blood.It was coming out of her nose.I got that mini heart attack when I saw it.I just started panicking I didn't know what to do.She couldn't even raise her head, she was just lying, couldn't move even a little.Mom and I took her to that vet but no one was there and since we didn't have a car,we had to sell it, we couldn't go to the Animal Center witch was on the other side of the city, and it also doesn't work all night, someone might come if you call them when you get there, but they just give you a stupid advice or something just to get you off their back, so mum called this vet that was really a pro, and he said he can't help if he doesn't know what's the illness she has, and of course that he's busy and he told us to bring her to him first thing in the morning. Mom just tried to calm me down a little bit, we headed back home, she said Fleky'll be fine, it's all gonna be good, like it always has to end well.I wanted to believe her.I did, a little.I really hoped it IS gonna all end great.I prayed like never just to keep her. I..;-; - And then around 6am I heard mom in my room, I woke up. And...she..she was there...on her blanket...I saw mom crying and I just....>.< I jumped of my bed and I saw here there...I-I couldn't breathe I just touched her, said her name and hoped like never she's gonna open her eyes and look at me, but ....no, she..she didn't....I couldn't even move, mom just hugged me and I was just like...I don't even know...Then dad came in and wanted to take her so he can bury her, and that's when mom asked Will I take one last photo? After she said that, that moment, I just...I don't remember I cried this bad even after my grandma died. Ever since that moment I rarely said a word to anyone. I was just like a statue, just the body, no words, no emotions, nothing. I lost the only friend I had left, you may think I'm an idiot, mourning over some stupid dog, but that dog was the only thing I had left, and when I lost her, I just felt like I lost everything, I forgot about my family, and those few friends I had left, I just continued playing games, hoping to think less about Fleky. And then 6 months after I lost her I found out about Pewds
I didn't even smile in those 6 months but just after few seconds of his video I started laughing, I just... I felt great, I watched his videos 2 days/nights straight I just loved him so bad and after a few weeks watching him I felt way better, I made some new awesome friends I stared going out a lil bit again, my grades are WAY better and now after a year of watching him I can't even say how great I feel, I still have those broken pieces but I keep it off my mind now, I also got a new dog, Jena, and two kitties, Buki and Ginger, moved to a way better place now, right next to my bff,Sheila, she also has some pets.We're just animal freaks, we can't live without them But yeah I'm still not 'used' to Jena, because I'm just afraid I'll get to close with her like I did with Fleky, and that I'll forget Flekica if I give my all heart to Jena now, so I..I kinda don't love her that much, I'm just scared she'll be too close and then just 'leave', like Fleky did....but I don't know...my pets are still my best friends I guess 'cause I spend all my time at home and rarely go out, only when Sheila 'attacks' me and pulls me out of my room XD But that's just what I do. Spend day playing games, spend night watching Pewds, Cry and Smosh. :3Aaaaand that's a bit of my story 'How I met PewDiePie and why I love him so damn much' XD
The second reason I love him is because he's a great inspiration, I mean if you watch ALL of his videos (mainly the fridays with pdp) you'll just fall in love with his sense of humor and personality and everything. He always makes me laugh, and sometimes cry, of course, but yeah that's just him and my 'life with him'
(sounded creepy, but yeah XD)I also want to be like him, I mean to start the gaming channel on youtube but...I don't know I'm only 15, I'm a girl, so you know, issues and stuff, I'll probably get a lot of hate and that 'just another attention whore' stuff, and I use his accent and characters and everything A LOT and I also might be 'just another bad copy of Pewdie' but I wouldn't try to copy him.It's just who I am right now.He's a part of my heart, I love him and he's like an older brother, someone I look up to and of course I do stuff he does, so I kinda don't want to start the channel yet, even if it's like my 3 biggest wish XD I'm just so shy and insecure so maybe, MAYBE I do it when I'm a lil older or something, I don't know, we'll see c:
Wow o.o I wrote quite an essay there XD
We'll I should stop I guess I don't know I only told you like 3 things I like; Pewds, animals and games XD
Oh, yeah Smosh and Cry too
And when I think about it, there's actually way more stuff I DON'T like XD
Anything that's girly, like; jewelry, going out(not really girly but xd), dresses, tight clothes, shopping, gossips, make up UUGH that's fucking make up, I just hate it so much I really don't know why XD and yeah stuff like that, cause I'm really more into guy's stuff, like; football, games, super huge shirts, those nice shorts that don't fucking suck up to your butt to make you look fucking 'nice' like most girls think
and being alone, I just enjoy it a lot So yeah, that would be my little story. If anyone actually reads it I just wanna say thanks for taking your time, sorry if I made you cry,(probably didn't) but I cried badly while writing about my dog, I was writing for like 5 seconds and then crying for 5 minutes, and then again writing through tears ;-;
But, yeah I somehow made it.
Sorry if I misspelled something, I'm not very great with English, it's not my mother language, I learned it mostly playing games, just like everything else I'm good at, and so yeah, that would be it. Thanks again and Pewds if you ever read this I just wanna say thank you from the bottom of my heart for making my life better and actually for bringing it back, you're a huge inspiration and one day I hope I'll get to be like you. *brofist* <3
Before you leave
This is Flekica after we moved in to the new place. And then this is her a week before she passed away.
And now this is Jena, the new crazy pup I have.She's now almost 6 moths old but since I couldn't find any new photo of her
here's her when I she was around 2-3 months old :love: