Hi guys
i needed to let some things out and since nobody here knows who i am and i would like some help/suggestions from you bros so here i go...
I am tired of my life, im just tired of everything and how alone i get and what my mind says to me..
My own father isn't proud of me, sometimes i think he doesn't even respect me or proud of me.
Every girl i have ever had interest in me has played me, recently i met this girl who was to good to be true, we like the same things, same hobbies, activities, music and sports we were just "evenly matched" she said she loves me and will always love me she would call me cutie and all sorts of cute things [yea i don't get compliments at all] but she was the only one who would acknowledge me i trusted her with anything...but knowing me i knew she wasn't gonna stay and what do you know after 4 of the best months of my life she just ignores me... our constant messages went to only an hour of messages to 30 messages...than im lucky if i get a response at all and i see her flirting with others calling them "cutie" and a friend of mine has supposedly been dating her and saying the same things...honestly im sick and tired of being treated like trash by everyone...I don't trust my own friends and my father...all i have is my dad and little brother but my brother is just a douche to me my dad always finds ways to blame things on me and even if i do nothing i get yelled at...I can't please anyone im feeling alone and depressed i want to cry at times but i HATE crying i absolutely hate it...it makes me feel weak, like a baby and just a wimp, so i always hold it back...I'd just like someone to talk to, be friends with, enjoy their company, be their reason to smile...just to be someone...Then there's the look i get from people a look of disgust why do people give me that look?! i know im unattractive but geez stop it...don't look at me like that! its agonizing! why do people look at me like that i did nothing wrong.
At school im a quiet, nice, smart guy...from what i hear but inside im in constant agony not knowing what to do!
Im failing classes and i just don't have the will to keep trying "Whats the point?" "Why am i here?" "Im nobody" i don't like failing so im on a whim in all my classes with a C+ and an A on my P.E class cause i like the fresh air and being able to look at the sky.
I have so much to say but i doubt anyone is even this far. so i'll just end it here
Sorry i bothered with this i just need to let a bit out.
goodnight bros.
i needed to let some things out and since nobody here knows who i am and i would like some help/suggestions from you bros so here i go...
I am tired of my life, im just tired of everything and how alone i get and what my mind says to me..
My own father isn't proud of me, sometimes i think he doesn't even respect me or proud of me.
Every girl i have ever had interest in me has played me, recently i met this girl who was to good to be true, we like the same things, same hobbies, activities, music and sports we were just "evenly matched" she said she loves me and will always love me she would call me cutie and all sorts of cute things [yea i don't get compliments at all] but she was the only one who would acknowledge me i trusted her with anything...but knowing me i knew she wasn't gonna stay and what do you know after 4 of the best months of my life she just ignores me... our constant messages went to only an hour of messages to 30 messages...than im lucky if i get a response at all and i see her flirting with others calling them "cutie" and a friend of mine has supposedly been dating her and saying the same things...honestly im sick and tired of being treated like trash by everyone...I don't trust my own friends and my father...all i have is my dad and little brother but my brother is just a douche to me my dad always finds ways to blame things on me and even if i do nothing i get yelled at...I can't please anyone im feeling alone and depressed i want to cry at times but i HATE crying i absolutely hate it...it makes me feel weak, like a baby and just a wimp, so i always hold it back...I'd just like someone to talk to, be friends with, enjoy their company, be their reason to smile...just to be someone...Then there's the look i get from people a look of disgust why do people give me that look?! i know im unattractive but geez stop it...don't look at me like that! its agonizing! why do people look at me like that i did nothing wrong.
At school im a quiet, nice, smart guy...from what i hear but inside im in constant agony not knowing what to do!
Im failing classes and i just don't have the will to keep trying "Whats the point?" "Why am i here?" "Im nobody" i don't like failing so im on a whim in all my classes with a C+ and an A on my P.E class cause i like the fresh air and being able to look at the sky.
I have so much to say but i doubt anyone is even this far. so i'll just end it here
Sorry i bothered with this i just need to let a bit out.
goodnight bros.