Many people may feel like this when they're beeing sad for most of their life. I think you should find someone to talk with, someone who helps you with your problems, who tells you something nice when you are sad, someone you can trust I had a depression but when i found a person that I'm described few words ago it's gone So I hope you find someone to talk about your problems, who understands your situation soon Good luck! There's a lot of people on internet to talk :)